I talk a lot about making the shift from a horizontal perspective to a vertical perspective, in other words the shift from seeing through the eyes of the ego to seeing through the eyes of the heart. In the horizontal world, we are always seeking to get something for me and mine and so we are self-protective, defensive, even attacking sometimes. In the vertical world, we see beyond the self-serving needs of ego and have an expanded viewpoint in which we see the broader picture that serves humanity and Life as a whole. In the horizontal, we are ruled by the tightness of fear; in the vertical, we have chosen the spaciousness of love. The former leads to suffering; the latter leads to liberation and joy.
The most common misunderstanding of these 2 dimensions or perspectives is that the vertical is a kind of fluffy "feel-good" place where nothing painful happens. The most common question is "how do I get to this place of spaciousness and how do I maintain it in a world of pain, difficulty and bad things happening?"
The answer to this question lies in the understanding that it is not an either/or situation. It is not a case of "if I choose the spaciousness of love then I will have no experience of pain and I will be immune to my own and the world's suffering". This either/or perspective is born of duality and is simply the same old paradigm we are currently living in. The vertical perspective embraces both this and that ... and this gives rise to a third possibility that is neither this nor that but something beyond both! It is the great paradox of Existence that allows duality to be contained within unity. This is the new paradigm .. the new consciousness emerging today as we awaken.
So what does this mean in real life? It means that your ego still operates but within the greater context of your heart. It means you are able to embrace both the shadow and the light. It means you feel your own suffering and the suffering of the world and you can hold these in the compassion of your heart .. without becoming a victim. There is no "poor me" in the vertical. There is only the milk of human kindness. There is only the tenderness of having opened wide to accept both the beauty and the horror of life. It means you feel everything - even your own despair, hurt and regret - and you choose to know that you are not identified by these feelings. These feelings are like clouds - sometimes dark and stormy clouds - that pass through the sky of your consciousness.
There are no real words to describe the liberation that comes from this expanded perspective ... it is a state of being that you recognize only when you have crossed the bridge from horizontal to vertical. There is no way to describe how it can possibly be that the vertical encompasses the horizontal. There is only a joy and a trust in the goodness of life once you have entered this new way of being. To the outside world, it seems as if nothing has changed in you .. but YOU know that everything is now different, sparkling with an effervescence that can never be taken away.
The journey to the vertical dimension can only be pointed to by those who have arrived there. It is so accessible to each and every one of us and yet when the prison walls are up we cannot understand how we can get there. There is no way to get there other than to follow your inner calling and to immerse yourself in the desire to awaken and be free. Life itself will lead you teachings, tools, processes, techniques and wisdom teachers who can give you a glimpse of this new world. But in the end, it is YOU who does it, it is YOU who once and for all decides to break out of your self-imposed prison.
The bottom line is that you either CHOOSE to be a victim of your own thoughts, feelings and beliefs or you CHOOSE to see beyond your conditioning and know yourself as the truth of your essential nature or I AM-ness. You either choose to be a victim of life or you choose to take full responsibility for your reality and take a good look at the unconscious beliefs that sabotage your freedom, joy and empowerment. As Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith says: "I AM an infinite being and I will NOT be subject to the lies created by small self! I AM an infinite being and I will NOT be subject to the the vicissitudes of small-box thinking!"
Make the choice in every moment to be greater than your pain, to be greater than your suffering .. not to deny or avoid, but to open softly even to that which hurts, to embrace both Heaven and Hell and in so doing to transcend both into a new place of Forgiveness and Love. This is the Warrior's Path to Liberation. It's a choice to be made over and over again, like exercising a muscle. Ultimately, there is no magical answer that resolves everything ... there is only the putting into practice of your resolve to stay open amidst the pain until you understand that liberation is the ability to hold your own and humanity's suffering. It's an ever-deepening journey without a destination. The reward is wisdom, compassion and freedom.
Know that you ARE love and be courageous enough to embrace everything that is in existence. You cannot be harmed or destroyed .. all that can happen is that you open wider than you can imagine and become greater than who you think you are.
with love and blessings, Amoda
I've just come back from the USA on a whirlwind visit to meet with all the amazing people with whom I have been collaborating for some of my projects and who have been supporting me in getting my message out to the world. I was touched deeply by everyone's hospitality, enthusiasm and generosity of spirit!
I was also blown away by the energy and passion of conscious people working towards the creation of a new future and the amount of networking, support and interactive-ness that goes on between everyone. It seems to me that, as well as all the mass unconscious beliefs that are driving people's lives, there is an incredibly strong, focused, clear and SUPER- CONSCIOUS driving force in the USA that is spear-heading a revolution in the way we live our lives. I was honored to make contact with some of these teachers, authors, speakers, entrepreneurs and humanitarians.
Indeed, I was challenged to stretch my imagination of the possibilities for expansion in what I have to offer and I learnt many new tools which I will be incorporating into my creative projects. I am really excited by what the future holds - both personally and collectively - as we are all pushed to offer our gifts and services for the benefit of humanity's awakening, each in our own unique way.
Looks like I shall be going back to the USA quite soon to build on what happened this time ... I greatly look forward to it whilst remaining fully anchored in the glory of the present moment!
As the year unfolds, there will be more news about the riches that this trip has offered me to allow me to offer more gifts to YOU!
with Love and Blessings,
Amoda Maa Jeevan
Many months ago, I said I would write a little about my relationship with my beloved, Kavi Jezzie Hockaday. Finally, I feel it is the right time to do so.
Relationships are so often the source of such pain and yet they are also the source of great healing. They are the holders of such unconsciousness and yet they hold the key to living a conscious life. In fact, intimate relationship with another human being is a mirror of how we relate to every single aspect of our lives. Except that within intimate relationship, the highs and lows are multiplied in intensity!
I've come from a history of painful relationships in which I played the "victim" and felt incredibly disempowered. It took me many years of confusion, struggle and limitation to change the way I am within relationship. It's only after I had the courage to dive deep into my aloneness that I discovered the truth of my wholeness and was able to bring that wholeness into my relationship with Kavi. In fact, it was only after I had made my primary relationship to God that Kavi appeared in my life and I was able to truly surrender into this new adventure. Ever since we met, we were clear that our primary relationship was to the Divine and we recognized that our relationship was a doorway to the realization of our own divinity. The Sacred Marriage was an internal one in which each moment and each interaction demanded the full depth of Presence and the full breadth of Openness.
Six years later, and our relationship still demands the full depth of Presence and the full breadth of Openness. Anything less than this and we descend into hell. So we stay awake and keep rising in love. The old games of co-dependency and playing the victim are gone. The old feeling that relationship was a trap that prevented me from being fully myself is gone. Through complete surrender into this relationship, I found my true self and I have never felt more free. Of course, I need my space at times, and of course we have to face each other with the truth of our feelings ... but all this happens within the greater freedom of true relating.
It is my direct experience that conscious relationship has the power to heal all wounds, that it has the power to accelerate personal evolution and that it has the power to radiate love and transformation out into the world. Because in conscious relationship, love is not selfish ... it cannot be, for its purpose is to spread outwards like a river of kindness that nourishes all that it touches. Love's purpose it to serve humanity by being greater than the 2 people who are "in relationship". In conscious relationship, there is a sacred marriage that gives birth not only to one's inner divinity but also gives birth to service. Love is not something to be held onto or contained, but something to be shared by serving the world.
When we each have the courage to discover our wholeness by diving into our aloneness, by recognizing that we are one with God at all times and therefore we are always whole and complete exactly as we are, we will attract into our lives a partner who matches us on this vibration. When we do not search for someone to make us whole but instead we make ourselves available to serve God, someone appears who can take our desire for service and make it tangible ... this is Love in Action in which our relationship serves a higher purpose.
When I met Kavi and we embarked on our relationship, I gave birth to a new vision that led me to write my book "How to Find God in Everything". I had no idea I was leaving behind my cherished role as a movement workshop facilitator and I had no idea of the new journey that was unfolding. It's a journey for which I am eternally grateful because it has given me the key to liberation.
As we move into a new vibration of global transformation, I feel that more and more conscious relationships will become manifest and give birth to even greater acts of service to humanity. There's a healing of the wounded masculine and the wounded feminine in us all that can only happen when 2 people meet each other in the truth of presence and in the openness of love. It's not that we can't do it on our own - of course we can since the meeting is within our own hearts - it's just that the power is magnified within intimate relationship.
So, I wish you a thousand blessings on your journey into love ... in whatever shape or form it takes. May you remember your oneness at all times!
with love, Amoda
Dear Friends,
I thought it was time I wrote something a bit more personal about my plans for 2009. Some of you have emailed me to ask if I am giving any talks, etc. It's a good question and one that I ask myself a lot too! I did give a few talks here in the UK and in Europe last year and this year I am working on doing a lot more "out in the world". I must admit it's been a bit tough getting people interested in my work here in UK ... it seems that GOD is a dirty word and prone to much misunderstanding! I'm working on changing the mass unconscious belief around this!
However, I've had an enthusiastic response from the USA and this year I shall be going over there to spread my message and see what doors open up for me ... I'm really excited by this as it has been my dream to go to America since I was 18 and somehow I never made it. My sense is that there is a pioneering spirit there that runs like a strong current through all fields of life and gives rise to the leading edge of spirituality and consciousness research that we see these days.
As well as making myself available for live talks, this year I'm also working on a number of projects to expand on what I can offer in terms of inspiration, wisdom and love to help humanity through the transition into the new paradigm we are entering into. These projects include online tutorials and teleseminars ... and hopefully a new book I'm putting together! Oh, and look out for my new 15-minute mini-movie called "The Secret that Unlocks Your True Spiritual Power" ... I'll send details as soon as it is ready for release.
2009 feels like a BIG year for all of us ... things are really speeding up and there's more breakdown of old structures as well as a proliferation of new ideas and tools for inner change. As science and spirituality come together, there's a deeper understanding of who we are as individuals and as a species. I find myself surfing a wave of transformation that is mind-boggling in its intensity and potential.
My affirmation for this year is ...
I aim to be an expression of the jewel that is my true nature and I aim to be of service to the world and to God! I surrender to that which is asked of me in small and big ways and I trust that I will be carried safely to the shore I cannot yet see.
May you also always be All That You Are in every way.
More news from me soon ...
Love and Blessings,
Amoda
Love in Action means a love that is practical. It's not only a rainbow-colored Universal Love that prays for peace but a love that is able to "get its hands dirty" in the human realm. It's a love that cherishes the physical vehicle of our soul because a healthy body is more able to carry out God's work. It's a love that is unafraid of handling money because global wealth so badly needs redistribution. And its a love that thinks ahead and starts creating now what future generations will need.
Love in Action is an expression of the Divine Mother Ray which is the new vibration of consciousness coming through today. The Divine Mother is an earthy one and will do whatever it takes to take care of all her children. She is rooted in the material realm and knows that real change happens when we put our spirituality into action. The Divine Mother is here to heal the wounds of humanity that have created separation and caused us to forget our oneness with all Life. We see this coming through in many ways, in particular in the ever-increasing environmental movement that addresses our rape of the planet. And we see it in the rising attention to economic and monetary issues.
One of the most important things we can do as a collective is to heal the Money Vibration; in other words, to change the way we think about and use money. Our unconscious beliefs around money have created a fear-based scarcity model of economics that has resulted in a huge divide between the rich and poor. Greed, self-protectiveness, corruption and the "profit at all costs" motto have become embedded in our money transactions .. no wonder we think of money as "dirty"! It's time to bring to light our negative thinking and cleanse the way we use money. Because money in service to Love becomes an incredibly powerful tool for changing the world! Can you imagine if each of us had access to all the wealth we needed? Can you imagine if each of us understood that abundance is our true nature and that scarcity is a lie created by ego to keep us small and disempowered? Can you imagine that instead of "profit at all costs" we aligned ourselves to "for the benefit for all mankind"? Can you imagine if all our businesses, corporations, media and entertainment industries served Love instead of ego?
I can imagine it, because I see these changes slowly emerging amidst the chaos and breakdown of conventional economic structures. I see a move towards the merging of spirituality and business, towards philanthropy and economics, towards unity-consciousness and creativity. It's still a small movement, but I sense the seeds of real change are being sown today for tomorrow's generation.
Love in Action ... it's a sign of the times!
I love this music video by the Luminaries - a collective of musicians come together to spread a message of Peace. What I like about it is that they've used the modern medium of rap and hip-hop beats to create a truly uplifting, unifying song that expresses the new consciousness. Now, I'm not particularly a fan of this kind of music, but I'm impressed by how they've used an often aggressive and ego-oriented style totally in service to Love! Check it out ... and enjoy!
with love and blessings, Amoda Maa Jeevan
I've been thinking about the state of our world ... and in particular the division we see played out on the political stage. How easy it is for us to project our hatred onto the "baddies", to feel justified in our aggressive defensiveness, to feel "right" in our moral high-ground. So much of our attention is directed towards those we feel "hard done by". So much of our energy is taken up with negative thoughts and feelings. So much of our focus is on "what's wrong". And so the world divides into "good" and "bad", into victims and villains. And yet it would be to our own benefit if we could see the world from a different perspective. If we could see through the eyes of unity instead of separation, the world would be a very different place. We might not condone the words and actions of those who do not have the highest good of all in mind, but we can choose to see that everyone is a manifestation of God - even though they might not appear to be! Even those we call "baddies" are - if we look beneath surface appearances - an expression of the Divine. On a personality level, we may see a person who is misguided, selfish, greedy and even "evil"; but on a soul level, could it be that this person through their apparently unloving actions has actually incarnated on this planet in order to be a catalyst for change? Could it be that, let's say, President Bush has in fact ignited a world-wide awareness of "what we really want to see in the world"? You could say that his soul has taken on some heavy karma in order to help humanity awaken to their own power by shocking them into taking action! Who is to say whether this is true or not? But whether it is true or not, this more expanded perspective on the "baddies" of the world can help us heal the wound of separation in our own hearts. It turns the focus around from more hatred and division towards love and oneness. We can choose what we really want by seeing what we don't want, but we can also know that it is the world of opposites that gives us the power to make this choice! In choosing to see everyone and everything as a manifestation of the One, we can make a positive contribution to creating the world that we truly want. I choose to practice this in my daily life ... and even when someone comes along who causes me hurt or difficulty, I choose to see that the deeper gift within this situation is always one of insight, healing and forgiveness.
May you always be in peace ...
with love and blessings, Amoda Maa Jeevan
In my recent newsletter I write about the increasing optimism I feel at this time of increasing chaos in our world. How can this be? How can I feel so good amidst news of economic collapse, political chaos and impending environmental disasters? Well, I don't feel good about these things happening ... but I do think that these signs of breakdown are actually the signs of a break through. I do not see it in terms of "things going terribly wrong": what I see is a world ready to shake off its old ways and a new world waiting in the wings to be born. I see this as a necessary part of our evolutionary growth, both as individuals and as a species. I see that it is time for the lies and illusions that have kept us asleep for millennia to crumble so that we can see the truth of who we are and what we are creating.
Painful and disturbing as some of these changes are, it is our task to stay open amidst the transition to a new way of being. Many years ago I foresaw that the world would split in two, with one half falling into destruction and the other half reforming itself as the new paradise. I also saw that what defined which one of these two worlds we would experience was our own state of consciousness. Quantum physics tells us that everything is connected and that what we observe is dependent on the observer. It is how we perceive things that brings them into existence. If we choose to see with fear, we will create a world of darkness. But if we choose to see with an open heart, if we choose to stay open as love even amidst the horror, then we will bring light to dispel the shadows and the world will be illuminated by our love. It's as simple as that!
If each of us has the courage to do this even when our own lives appear to be threatened in so many ways, then the collective vibration of humanity will be uplifted so that a shift in global consciousness can take place. And when we move into a higher state of consciousness, who knows what the outcome will be in terms of how the world functions? Could it be that humanity finally learns to live with each other in harmony and peace? Could it be that all our interactions become transparent and we all work towards the good of the greater whole? Could it be that unconditional love becomes the most important thing?
These are no new-age pipe dreams but a very real possibility for us all .. if we choose to believe it. More and more quantum scientists, spiritual teachers and consciousness researchers are all coming to the same conclusion ... that the world is as we choose to create it. And there is increasing evidence that we are moving into a grand re-visioning time for the whole of humanity and the earth, a time during which we truly do have the potential to transform our reality. It is an amazing time to be alive ... and we have each chosen to be here at this time!
Let us not believe the fear-mongering of the politicians, the media and the unconscious thoughts of those who cannot see clearly. Yes, there are serious changes to the way things are ... but let us choose to celebrate these changes and to shine the light of our love in small and big ways wherever we are and wherever we go. Each of us can be an active agent of change! By choosing Love over Fear always and in all ways, we can play an active part in the rebirth of our beloved community of earth-dwellers. This is what we have come here for .. and we are truly the ones we have been waiting for!
You and I are here to remember who we truly are ... and to remind others. Let us do so with humility and grace, with certainty and courage ... we are here to remember our divinity and to celebrate our place in the grand scheme of Life!
May the fire in your heart burn as bright as mine does in these changing times ...
I love you,
Amoda Maa Jeevan
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