This new book demanded to be written from a place of Being and it called me to dive deep into stillness so that it could speak through me. This meant no more leading classes and workshops, no more running a business, and no more one-to-one sessions for my clients. It was a difficult decision but one that felt absolutely right: I had to stop all "doing" in the world and follow the quiet voice within. The situation was far from ideal though. I had no income and the only place I could write was in my one-bedroom basement flat in North London. I had imagined something more glorious than this! But with Kavi's support, I found a way to negotiate time and space an then it was down to my dedication to the writing process. The initial stages were slow as the overall structure took shape and I wrote and rewrote several chapters.
And then one day ... the true message of this book revealed itself to me! The power of the message was contained in a vision I had received several years previously and the subsequent transformation of my relationship to Life and God. What I had failed to see back then was that this vision was not only pivotal in my own personal journey, but that it also held the key to humanity's transformation from suffering to joy. In other words, it showed how we each can be empowered to create Heaven on Earth! (for the complete description and explanation of the vision, see the Introduction to "How To Find God In Everything")
Now, what a revelation! From this point on, the words came through loud and clear and everything fell into place (including a publishing deal!). It no longer mattered where I was writing ... I fell into such a vertical space of dimensionless proportions that I could have been sitting high in the Himalayas! As I wrote about how God calls us in every moment of Life - wherever we are and whatever we are doing - so I found God in the nitty-gritty of my inner city life. The message in this book came alive as I tasted the truth in the teaching and integrated it into my daily experience. From the conception of an idea was born something very new and exciting!
Just like a mother, I was faced with the choice of either shaping my baby into familiar but out-worn patterns or completely surrendering to the unique mission of the soul that had chosen me as its doorway into earthly life. In the realization that this book did not "belong" to me - in the same way as a child does not "belong" to its mother - I found myself in service to a collective vision that had the power to change the world! And I also found that I had tapped into the zeitgeist ... the urgency of the times that we live in, the potential for global annihilation or total transformation, the choice between love and fear that we are each called to make in every moment.
Writing this book has been the most challenging, exciting, demanding and fulfilling thing I have ever done! There are many things I have learnt from this journey that have helped me grow in many ways. I have learnt to absolutely trust the voice of intuition, to have total faith in Life to support me, to have the courage to follow my dream, to learn new skills and stretch beyond my comfort zone, and to love the creative birth process more than my need for self- protection. All this - and more - can be summarized in one of my favorite quotes:
I hope you too are inspired by this wonderful quote ... and I hope you too have the courage to follow your dream and offer your gifts to the world!
In my next blog, I will share something about how my relationship to Kavi was central in giving birth to the vision and this book.
Many blessings,
Amoda
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